What Makes A Mother

Thank you to everyone who took the time to share a hug or two. Please feel free to give some more hugs whenever you feel like sharing more. It'll be very much appreciated.

I got an email from my friend who just had her D & C. Yeah, I know that's so sad. It brought back painful memories, but I don't mind sharing my story to anyone who went through the same dilemma my hubby and I did. If it could lighten their load a bit, I'm glad to have helped. She emailed me this poem and I'd like to share it to all of you.

I thought of you and closed my eyes
And prayed to God today
I asked "What makes a Mother?"
And I know I heard Him say.

"A Mother has a baby"
This we know is true.
"But, God, can you be a Mother,
When your baby's not with you?"

"Yes, you can," He replied With confidence in His voice.
"I give many women babies,
When they leave is not their choice.

Some I send for a lifetime,
And others for the day.
And some I send to feel your womb,
But there's no need to stay."

"I just don't understand this, God,
I want my baby to be here."
He took a deep breath and cleared His throat,
And then I saw the tear.

"I wish I could show you,
What your child is doing today.
If you could see your child's smile,
With all the other children and say...

'We go to Earth to learn our lessons,
Of love and life and fear.
My Mommy loved me oh so much,
I got to come straight here.

I feel so lucky to have a Mom,
Who had so much love for me.
I learned my lessons very quickly,
My Mommy set me free.

I miss my Mommy oh so much,
But I visit her every day.
When she goes to sleep,
On her pillow's where I lay.

I stroke her hair and kiss her cheek,
And whisper in her ear.
'Mommy don't be sad today,
I'm your baby and I'm here.'

"So you see my dear sweet ones,
your children are okay.
Your babies are born here in My home,
And this is where they'll stay.

They'll wait for you with Me,
Until your lesson's through.
And on the day that you come home
they'll be at the gates for you.

So now you see what makes a Mother,
It's the feeling in your heart
it's the love you had so much of
Right from the very start.

Though some on earth may not realize,
you are a Mother until their time is done.
They'll be up here with Me one day
and know that you are the best one!"
(by Jennifer Wasik)

Care To Give Me Hugs?

After a day's work, for three nights now, I'd come home to an empty house. I've been on my own when I was still single but "on my own" I meant supporting myself and living away from my family, not necessarily living alone. I lived with my best friend and her daughter in a one bedroom condo unit. When my hubby left to work abroad, I lived with my parents for a short while then I decided to just go back to our own house. This time I'm on my own, home alone. *sigh*

It sure feels lonely.

Care to give me hugs?

If you look at my side bar, the box below where my Daily Bread is, you'd see my *Hugs* box. Just click on the line where it says give me more hugs. I'd definitely be expecting my hubby to give me one BIG hug when he comes back home.

In the meantime, thanks for keeping me company. c",)

Happy Thanksgiving!!!

You Ask Why I Follow Jesus?

You ask why I follow this Jesus?

Why I love Him the way I do?

When the world's turn away from His teaching

And the people who serve Him are few.

It's not the rewards I'm after

Or gifts that I hope to receive

It's the Presence that calls for commitment

It's the Spirit I trust and believe.

The Lord doesn't shelter His faithful

Or spare them all suffering and pain,

Like everyone else I have burdens,

And walk through my share of rain.

Yet He gives me a plan and a purpose,

And that joy only Christians have known,

I never know what comes tomorrow,

But I do know I'm never alone.

It's the love always there when you need it;

It's the words that redeem and inspire,

It's the longing to ever be with Him

That burns in my heart like a fire.

So you ask why I love my Lord Jesus?

Well, friend, that's so easy to see,

But the one thing that fills me with wonder is

Why Jesus loves someone like me.

(From postive thoughts.com)

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From the song Above All... (chorus)

Crucified

Laid behind the stone

You lived to die

Rejected and alone

Like a rose

Trampled on the ground

You took the fall

And thought of me

Above all

Serenity

I've seen these sketches several times in the past and I thought they're really great. Then I forgot all about them.

Yesterday, I've seen them again. I still think they're awesome just the same, only this time it gives me a whole new sense of serenity just by looking at them.

Choices

Everything happens for a reason. Those two stained tops (I just discovered that there were three, not just two, and a total of four ruined tops in three months) happened for a purpose. That is to teach me patience more. I must admit, patience is a virtue that I still struggle with sometimes. As I type this post fear is trying to set in, trying to get a hold of me again, trying to eat up whatever amount of patience I have. Then I'm reminded of our Christmas tree, why I decided to put it up and what it stands for this year.

FEAR --- False Evidence Appearing Real (by Joyce Meyer) is an emotion we can choose to feel toward something that hasn't happened yet that'll lead us to wallow in worry. Or we can choose to have FAITH and continue to TRUST in Him who promised that He has our situation well under control. I choose the latter. I choose to have joy and peace instead of anxiety. Everything's going to be all right! You know, writing this helps me remember that my God is bigger than any of my problems. He's bigger than any of my concerns.

"Father, I stand in your presence once again and lifting up this load to you. I believe that with you nothing is impossible. I know that you're going to make a way for us. The christmas tree I put up is more than just an adornment in our house, it symbolizes the faith I have in you. Father, more than anyone, you know my heart and my husband's. I believe in You. We believe in You. Thank you, Father, for giving us joy and hope. And thank you for giving us the strength to stand in what we believe you for even when the enemy is trying his best to control us through fear. I give you back all the glory. In Jesus' name, Amen."

Am I Making Sense?

I'm tired and extremely irritated of telling people how to do things and still end up doing it the wrong way. After seeing two of my light colored tops now with black stains on them, I completely lost it this morning. I was so exhausted from work yesterday, haven't had a good sleep that night and now this. I was furious! I could hear my hubby echoing in my ear what he used to tell me when things go wrong: "Babe, keep your cool and just let it pass. It's okay." No, this time it's not okay! That's the third one she ruined in three months. The first one was a light blue haltered top Jec gave me! Ooohh, I gave her a piece of my mind! Grrr...

My point is this --- all of us are expected to do the job we're being paid for, and a good job at that. We're allowed to make mistakes because let's face it, nobody's perfect. But we should LEARN from those mistakes. One misjudgement of a doctor can cause him his license. One major act of negligence can cause me my job. I also expect people working for me to do their job accordingly.

I didn't plan to do my venting here, but am I making sense?

An Act Of Faith

We usually have a long celebration of the Christmas season here. As early as September, Christmas songs are already being played on the radio. I remember my mom putting up the Christmas tree that early and it will be returned to its box by mid January the following year. We will also start doing our Christmas shopping at the first "ber" month to avoid the Christmas rush. When I was a kid, I will receive gifts as early as September and would excitedly pile them up under the Christmas tree. I love Christmas!

Now that I'm married, I usually put up our Christmas tree right after my birthday. But not this year. This year is different because my hubby is not going to be with me. Or so I thought. I didn't have the urge to get the tree out of the box and fix it up. My hubby was insisting that I should and so did my friends. During our Bible study, my cell leader said something that made me realize one fact about faith and prayer.

So last October 31, in just an hour and a half, I enthusiastically put our 7 ft. tree up and decorated it. It's an act of faith on my part for something that I have been praying for. My cell leader was right. I'm believing God for something and therefore I should act on it. My tree, up majestically, symbolizes my FAITH in Him whom I trust.

Lessons Learned

God has spoken to me several times about reconciliation and unity. I began to see some light the moment I decided to step out in faith and obeyed God. God wanted me to make the first move (I normally wouldn't). And I'm glad I did. A relationship has been restored. It is so important to obey God because it is when God's power is unlocked. I continue to pray for this person very close to my heart hoping in God that changes in this person's life will take place soon.

As I have always believed, God has a purpose behind every problem. God uses problems to draw us closer to Him. It is during adversity that we learn to pray our most heartfelt prayer. Problems causes us to look and depend on God instead of ourselves. I love this line from The Purpose Driven Life --- "You'll never know that God is all you need until God is all you've got." Everything that happens to us is with God's permission. He is in control. God knows what is best for us and has our best interests at heart. "And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to His purpose." Romans 8:28

I have faced troubles in the past and I asked God several times, "Why me?" But now I have learned to ask God, "What do you want me to learn?" Those experiences taught me to be more patient and to hold on more firmly to God's promises. For Jesus said, "You need to persevere so that when you have done the will of God, you will receive what He has promised." Hebrews 10:36