The pain and the rashes on my face and body are now completely gone. I can now sleep like a baby at night. Thank God! I'd like to thank everyone who prayed for me, Jec and I are truly grateful for all your prayers and well wishes. Thanks to Corry and KC for the wonderful gift they sent us. It is our heart's desire that God will bless y'all abundantly.
God has been continually sending people my way, people whom I would think is God Himself, as I go and travel my life's journey. In trying times, God has proven that His grace is sufficient and there really is new grace in the time of need. God showed me this truth when I'm this close to hitting rock bottom. My life is like a puzzle with all the pieces in front of me. When I try to put them all together myself, I get frustrated because I tend to jumble the pieces more often than not. When I let God do the fitting, everything works like magic. Patiently, He puts one and two together and before I know it, my life's majestic figure is becoming more and more evident to my human eye.
In front of me are some loose pieces of my life's puzzle and I can't seem to put them in its place correctly. I'm reminded of a story about a father and son who goes fishing once in a while to bond. Most of the time, the boy gets his fishing line tangled in knots. The more he try to untangle the knots himself, the bigger and tighter the knots become. He finally decided to hand it over to his father to untie the knots for him so he can continue fishing. Slowly, little by little, as the father works on it, the knots on the fishing line were straightened. Some of the loose pieces in my puzzle are situations in my life where they're all tangled up. Just like in the story, the more I try to fix them, the more messed up they become. The other day, God reminded me to hand Him over my "tangled fishing line" so He could fix it for me and I can enjoy the life He gave me the way He intended it.
The Little Grass Hut
Thursday, June 22, 2006
I know I said that I might not be posting for this month anymore but I want to share this important lesson with y'all.
The past few days have been really difficult for me. I've been in pain through out the day and I can't take pain killers for it because it could complicate with my other health condition and I have rashes all over my body including my face. I went to my doctor for check up last Tuesday and she gave me a new list of lab tests (I'm getting tired of this) to be done which includes one that has to be sent to the states because we don't have the facilities to perform it here. Just imagine how much that'll cost us... that's around $400. The medication that I have to undergo which is called IVIg would cost us around $1,300 per session. My doctor said that I have to have the infusion for three consecutive months (so that's a total of three sessions). Plus I have to take steroids and of course my Clexane/Heparin shots daily. No, we don't have the insurance to pay for all of that, we don't have that kind of insurance here unfortunately. Because of the excruciating pain that I'm going through and all these treatments, not to mention the monetary cost of it all, I felt more like death is such a welcome breeze. I told God that I'd appreciate it if He'll just take my life and spare me the pain. I couldn't stand seeing my husband suffer along with me. I kept asking God to please take my life now. I was waiting for God to strike me with lightning or maybe a heart attack or something that'll stop me from breathing, but none of those... I'm still alive.
I guess it's not God's will for me to die yet. Maybe He wants me to do a lot more with my life. Maybe He wants me to help others who are also suffering. Maybe...
The past few days have been really difficult for me. I've been in pain through out the day and I can't take pain killers for it because it could complicate with my other health condition and I have rashes all over my body including my face. I went to my doctor for check up last Tuesday and she gave me a new list of lab tests (I'm getting tired of this) to be done which includes one that has to be sent to the states because we don't have the facilities to perform it here. Just imagine how much that'll cost us... that's around $400. The medication that I have to undergo which is called IVIg would cost us around $1,300 per session. My doctor said that I have to have the infusion for three consecutive months (so that's a total of three sessions). Plus I have to take steroids and of course my Clexane/Heparin shots daily. No, we don't have the insurance to pay for all of that, we don't have that kind of insurance here unfortunately. Because of the excruciating pain that I'm going through and all these treatments, not to mention the monetary cost of it all, I felt more like death is such a welcome breeze. I told God that I'd appreciate it if He'll just take my life and spare me the pain. I couldn't stand seeing my husband suffer along with me. I kept asking God to please take my life now. I was waiting for God to strike me with lightning or maybe a heart attack or something that'll stop me from breathing, but none of those... I'm still alive.
I guess it's not God's will for me to die yet. Maybe He wants me to do a lot more with my life. Maybe He wants me to help others who are also suffering. Maybe...
The Little Grass Hut
The only survivor of a shipwreck was washed up on a small,
uninhabited island. He prayed feverishly for GOD to rescue him and everyday he
scanned the horizon for help, but none seemed forthcoming. Exhausted, he
eventually managed to build a little hut out of driftwood to protect himself
from the elements and to store his few possessions.
One day, after scavenging for food, he arrived home to find his little hut in flames with smoke rolling up to the sky. The worst had happened! Everything was lost! He was stunned with disbelief, grief, and anger. "GOD, how could you do this to me?" he cried.
Early the next day he was awakened by the sound of a ship that was approaching the island. It had come to rescue him. "How did you know I was here?" asked the weary man of his rescuers. "We saw your smoke signal," they replied.
Moral of the story: It's easy to get discouraged when things are going bad, but we shouldn't lose heart, because GOD is at work in our lives, even in the midst of pain, and suffering. Remember that, the next time your little hut seems to be burning to the ground. It just may be a smoke signal that summons the grace of GOD.
The only survivor of a shipwreck was washed up on a small,
uninhabited island. He prayed feverishly for GOD to rescue him and everyday he
scanned the horizon for help, but none seemed forthcoming. Exhausted, he
eventually managed to build a little hut out of driftwood to protect himself
from the elements and to store his few possessions.
One day, after scavenging for food, he arrived home to find his little hut in flames with smoke rolling up to the sky. The worst had happened! Everything was lost! He was stunned with disbelief, grief, and anger. "GOD, how could you do this to me?" he cried.
Early the next day he was awakened by the sound of a ship that was approaching the island. It had come to rescue him. "How did you know I was here?" asked the weary man of his rescuers. "We saw your smoke signal," they replied.
Moral of the story: It's easy to get discouraged when things are going bad, but we shouldn't lose heart, because GOD is at work in our lives, even in the midst of pain, and suffering. Remember that, the next time your little hut seems to be burning to the ground. It just may be a smoke signal that summons the grace of GOD.
Taking A Break
Wednesday, June 14, 2006
Last night came another blow in our lives. I thought, when will this ever end? At the back of my mind and in my heart I know that God is still in control and He's telling us to TRUST HIM. My body, my flesh, wants to give up already. I wanted to go over all the mountains in front of us NOW, but I'm aware that it's going to take some time. Jec said to keep on pressing on and I know that that's the only way to go if we want to win this race.
This may be my last post for the month because honestly, I'm already exhausted from life's pressures. I'm sorry that I have to take another break from blogging. I'll still be around though. Please know that you're all in my prayers and if you could pray for us too, that'll be very much appreciated. Thank y'all and God bless!
This may be my last post for the month because honestly, I'm already exhausted from life's pressures. I'm sorry that I have to take another break from blogging. I'll still be around though. Please know that you're all in my prayers and if you could pray for us too, that'll be very much appreciated. Thank y'all and God bless!
A Prayer For You
Wednesday, June 7, 2006
As I read my Bible, I listed down some verses in a piece of paper and kept in my bag so I can pull it out anytime I need to remind myself of God's promises. I read them aloud and meditate on them especially when I feel like my faith is being shaken. I'd like to share these verses to you in hope that they will also help you in whatever circumstance you're in right now.
"So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I
will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right
hand." Isaiah 41:10
"Forget the former things; do not dwell on the past. See, I am doing a new
thing! Now it springs up; do you not perceive it? I am making a way in the
desert and streams in the wasteland." Isaiah 43:18-19
"So is my word that goes out from my mouth: It will not return to me empty, but
will accomplish what I desire and achieve the purpose for which I sent it."
Isaiah 55:11
"The LORD will keep you from all harm— he will watch over your life; the LORDFather, I pray that you will touch the lives of everyone who reads this post. May they feel your divine presence as they meditate on your precious words. Give us renewed strength and peace of mind as we stand on your promises. I sincerely believe that our miracle is on its way. I ask all these in the name of our Lord Jesus Christ, Amen.
will watch over your coming and going both now and forevermore." Psalm 121:7-8
On A Lighter Note...
Monday, June 5, 2006
This is my first post for the month of June and since I don't have anything new to share at this point, I've decided to do this tag, this time with a lighter and happier mood... for a change. c",) Here goes:
I am... Pia, happily married.
I said... and I'll say it again, God is good!
I want... to obey Him and reap my rewards and to lead a good example for others.
I wish... I could be of more help to others with financial needs.
I miss... my childhood days. I had a happy one.
I hear... words of encouragement from friends all the time. They help me a lot to keep going.
I wonder... what God's great plans for me? I'm excited to experience all of them now.
I regret... disobeying Him in the past in spite of the obvious that messed up my life big time.
I am not... perfect.
I dance... as often as I can to keep me fit.
I sing... songs of worship when I'm happy, sad and especially when I'm scared.
I cry... when I'm in pain and when I'm too happy.
I am not always... positive. But thank God I don't wallow in negativity that long.
I make with my hands... some cross stitching.
I write... whenever I feel like it.
I confuse... God's will with mine and so I used to end up disappointed often in the past.
I need... God's mercy, love and blessings.
I should... keep trusting God because He who promises is faithful.
I start... to panic when things don't go according to my plans. God dealt with me about this.
I finish... whatever I started. I never stop until it's done.
I love... God, my husband, my family and friends.
I tag... YOU!
I am... Pia, happily married.
I said... and I'll say it again, God is good!
I want... to obey Him and reap my rewards and to lead a good example for others.
I wish... I could be of more help to others with financial needs.
I miss... my childhood days. I had a happy one.
I hear... words of encouragement from friends all the time. They help me a lot to keep going.
I wonder... what God's great plans for me? I'm excited to experience all of them now.
I regret... disobeying Him in the past in spite of the obvious that messed up my life big time.
I am not... perfect.
I dance... as often as I can to keep me fit.
I sing... songs of worship when I'm happy, sad and especially when I'm scared.
I cry... when I'm in pain and when I'm too happy.
I am not always... positive. But thank God I don't wallow in negativity that long.
I make with my hands... some cross stitching.
I write... whenever I feel like it.
I confuse... God's will with mine and so I used to end up disappointed often in the past.
I need... God's mercy, love and blessings.
I should... keep trusting God because He who promises is faithful.
I start... to panic when things don't go according to my plans. God dealt with me about this.
I finish... whatever I started. I never stop until it's done.
I love... God, my husband, my family and friends.
I tag... YOU!
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