Pains And Worries

Monday, May 22, 2006
We went to my immunologist last Saturday morning for my check up. I was given a list of blood tests that I have to do again. I was prescribed to take Prednisone tabs and Clexane shots daily... again. On our way home while we're still in the car, I couldn't help crying. I can't brush off the thought of how painful each shot is, plus how expensive my medicines are. I was worried sick! When some friends and family learned about this, they were all so worried about me too, especially my dad. I can't blame them, they knew what I've gone through and how complicated it was.

I kept telling God how scared I was and asked Him to strengthen me. I was encouraged after hearing what our pastor preached that afternoon. It's like as if God was telling me, "Daughter, fear not for I am here to take care of you." All of a sudden I felt like my worries were lifted up from me. Back home, I still feel the pain each time Jec gives me the shot, but I know that God is holding my hand and I could almost hear Him say, "Daughter, it's okay. I'm here with you."


I've stopped asking God why. I've just embraced the truth that He knows best.


32 comments:

Anonymous said...

If my rheumatologist got her way and the meds wouldn't be so expensive, then I would be on shots as well. Just the thought of it makes my skin crawl! I am so grateful for Jec being there with you and helping you through this. It must be hard on him as well. Give him our love, please?


God does know best and He is with you all the way, all the time:-)
And so are we, in spirit and in prayer. May your trust and faith in Him be highly rewarded.

We love you, girl!

God's Grace.

Anonymous said...

Praying for you this morning.

God is in control.

((hugs))

Anonymous said...

Pia, what do those shots do?

Anonymous said...

Dearest Pia lieve zus
My hearts goes out to you.
You're so young and you're going through so much.
Just continue to trust our Lord.
He cares for you very much.
Everything will be beautiful in His time.
In God we trust :)
Please take care, dear zus.
HUGS!

Anonymous said...

He is with you every step you take, and every pain, fear, he feels too. He loves you that much. I hope you can find some peace knowing He really is holding you every minute of the day.

Praying for you!

Dawn

Anonymous said...

Oh girl - I am praying for "Jesus to repair YOU" as my little guy would say!!!

I will seriously be keeping you in my prayers sweet one!!

Anonymous said...

My family will being praying for you. Always remember that our God is a God of healing. That's why Jesus died on the cross for all our sickness and diseases. Keep on telling yourself that you're healed even in the time of pain. Keep confessing it's gone and it will be. Be Blessed

Anonymous said...

corry: thanks, mamu. i thank God for jec, he's always there for me. he's so patient in giving me those shots. he makes me laugh so i won't feel the pain too much. those little things he does are so important to me. i'll tell him you love him too.

(((HUGS)))

shenna: thank you so much. (((HUGS)))

drea: after i had my first miscarriage, it was found out that i have an immune system disorder and i was tested positve for SLE. they all come charging when my hormones changes -- when i'm pregnant. i had just undergone a procedure last week that needed me to have those shots and all those expensive meds again as precuationary measures.

audrey: i'm holding on to that, lieve zus. thank you. (((HUGS)))

dawn: thank you. i know He does.

kimber: thank you. i really like that line -- "Jesus to repair you." thanks for praying.

pj: thank you very much. i'll do that. God bless.

Anonymous said...

May the Lord give you healing and perfect peace.

Anonymous said...

It's a comforting feeling to know that as children of God, our Heavenly Father can shoulder our burdens and worries for us.

Anonymous said...

ohhh okay. Wow well im sorry you have to go through this...
I hope it gets better.

Anonymous said...

*hugs* to you pia. will keep you in prayer.

Anonymous said...

You are in my prayers! :)

Anonymous said...

Pia, what illness do you have (so that I can pray specifically for healing)? I will lift you up and ask that He hold you in his arms and erase all the pain and illness so that you can be the witness He created you to be.

Anonymous said...

I pray that God will bring you healing according to His will and glorious power. May He meet your needs physically, emotionally and financially.

Nothing can ever separate us from the love of God.

Anonymous said...

I'm glad yo're back and so sorry your having a time of trials. You are in my thoughts and prayers.

Love and hugs,

Anonymous said...

Father, I lift up my sweet and beautiful sister, Pia. There are things we must endure while sorjourning on this earth, but I pray that You will speak a healing over your daughter, Pia. Heartache by the bucketfulls has come her way, and I ask a release, relief and peace like a river to flow over her. Give her strength and wisdom. In Your Son's most precious name and for His sake, Amen.

Anonymous said...

curm: amen! thank you. =)

stranger in a strange land: yes, indeed. and thank you, Jesus!

drea: =)

joy: thank you. =)

anonymous: thank you. =)

susan: thank you. i was diagnosed to have what is called antiphospholipid antibody syndrome last 2004. it's an immune system disorder. and also i was tested positive for SLE.

gordon: amen! thank you.

paula: (((HUGS)))

gina: amen! thank you for that prayer. =)

Anonymous said...

May the Lord take away the pain of the shots and bring you healing.

Anonymous said...

May He bring you peace and healing....praying for you.

Donna

Anonymous said...

Thinking of you Sis. Have a blessed weekend.

Love ya,

Anonymous said...

I thank the Lord that He is holding you through the struggles.

God bless you richly Pia.

Anonymous said...

Hi pia ive read ur blog today.and im very sad about it. dnt worry like what uve said in your blog, God is with u.We will pray 4 u. take care.be strong.

Anonymous said...

(((HUGS))) Be bold and be strong. You are so right. God knows best! You are in my prayers.

Anonymous said...

rulan: amen!

donna: thank you. =)

paula: luv yah too, sis.

mimi: thank you. =)

anonymous: thank you. =)

kitty: (((HUGS)))

Anonymous said...

Dearest Pia
You'll be healed by our Almighty Lord very soon.
Just claim His miraculous healing touch for yourself.
I'm praying that our good Lord will bless you and Jec with babies.
Thank you, Jesus.
Thank you, Lord.

Exodus 15:26

Anonymous said...

Dearest sister Pia, my precious friend ~ I pray and ask the Lord to give you grace to endure, to cause His joy well up inside you inspite of the pain, to carry you when you're tired, and to have your life filled with love and encouragement from friends and family. When you hurt, we hurt. When you rejoice, we rejoice with you. {{hugs}} Please know how much I care and will keep you in my ongoing prayers to the Father.

love you bunches,
Vicki

Anonymous said...

Just wanted to let you know I thought of you today.

Love and hugs,

Anonymous said...

vicki: thank you so much. (((HUGS)))

paula: you're so sweet. (((HUGS)))

Anonymous said...

aaw sweetie, i can't imagine what you are going through but just remember, God knows! He knows everything that is going on in your body and around you and He will use it for His will. I know that's really hard to hear. I had some news last week myself that I still can't reconcile to myself but I guess in the end all we can do is trust. God bless you sister. Chin uP!

Anonymous said...

thanks, nan. i know that someday, i'll be able to use this experience to inspire others too. please take care and God bless you too, sis. =)

Anonymous said...

You shared,
"I've stopped asking God why. I've just embraced the truth that He knows best."

A place of surrender.

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