God At Work!

I just need to share this with y'all. As some of you know, Jeric and I are in a situation now that only God can turn around. I sent a prayer request to Christian Women Online and this is what Darlene, the founder and editor of CWO, said:

"Pia, I was praying for you earlier that God would open doors for you and Jeric, I wasn't sure why I was praying that. Then I read your letter, and I see that you need doors of opportunity for Jeric, doors that guide him home, and a door that you can both call "home." The Spirit is making intercession for you. Praise God."

Yes, Praise God! He is at work.

"Therefore he is able to save completely those who come to God through him, because he always lives to intercede for them." Hebrews 7:25

The Promise No One Wants

I read this in a book called "The Promise No One Wants" by one of our pastors, Joey Bonifacio. "With the greatest breakthrough come the most violent shaking and turbulence... Disorientation, dizziness, loss of direction and even fear and discouragement can occur just before a breakthrough."

I got so encouraged with this book. I realized that God allowed all these shaking in my life because He's preparing me for something better. He wanted me to be ready to receive them. Do I want to go through the shaking all over again? Honestly? Without batting an eyelash, heck, no! I might as well let God shake everything in me now, learn the lessons that goes with it and receive His blessings after, than struggle with all of my strength and go through it all over again until I get His point.

Remember the saying that the tighter you hold on to a wet soap, the more it'll slip from your hand? Same is true with God. The more you hold on to dear life and struggle with His will, the more you'll missed out on His blessings.

It's very clear that what He's telling me is, "Be still and know that I am God..." Psalm 46:10. He's still in control. I have to make a choice. Should I try to protect myself from getting hurt and struggle with what God wants to do in my life or should I let God lead my life no matter how much it hurts? I chose the latter. Is it the easiest way? Certainly not! But it's the ONLY way to my blessings.

This too I know, "Instead of their shame my people will receive a double portion, and instead of disgrace they will rejoice in their inheritance; and so they will inherit a double portion in their land, and everlasting joy will be theirs" Isaiah 61:7.

I still don't understand a lot of things that's going on in my life, there's still a lot of "why's" in it, but I have learned to let Him lead my way with blindfolds on, believing that at the end of this road is where my treasure is and my joy will be complete. "Dear (Pia), do not be surprised at the painful trial you are suffering, as though something strange were happening to you. But rejoice that you participate in the sufferings of Christ, so that you may be overjoyed when His glory is revealed." 1 Peter 4:12,13.

Little Victories

I've wanted so much to bring to you some happy news about what's going on in my world. God has been good. He let me taste little victories which I'm so grateful about. My mom is getting better, she's still having her dialysis though. The objective is to bring down her creatinine level to normalcy and so far, although she's still a few levels up from the desired number, she's getting there. My brother's pastor and churchmates went to visit my mom and prayed for her too. Oh, by the way, my mom is in Christ Hospital in New Jersey. Good thing that they're surrounded by Christians during this time of crisis.

My husband, Jeric, and I are communicating again although not as often as we used to. He told me in a text message that he's working again and he went back to school to take up a short course. I'm glad that he's okay although I'm not quite sure about what his plans are. Nevertheless, God said in Proverbs 19:21 that "many are the plans in a man's heart, but it is the Lord's purpose that prevails." I also read in a book that: "I should look to God as the source of all I want to see happen in my marriage, and I shouldn't worry about how it will happen. It's my job to pray. It's God's job to answer..." I also know that I have friends all over the globe who prays for us. I know in my heart that soon we will be reconciled and that my marriage is in the palm of God's hand.

Thank you for praying. I want you to know that your prayers are not in vain. He heard us and He's moving. You are all part of the little victories we're all experincing now. Thank you for standing with me in prayer. Thank you for continuously fighting this battle with me. God bless us all.

Mom In ICU

***UPDATE***

Jec called early this morning and we were able to talk a little. He said that he's facing a lot of problems now. I just told him that I may not be there physically with him but I can help encourage him and pray for him. Finally he assured me that I'm still his wife and that he loves me very much. The words I've been waiting to hear from him all this time. We weren't able to tackle everything but it was a start. I know that as I pray, as we all pray, God will change his heart and lead him to the right path.

My mom had her dialysis again today. My brother said so far, so good. I'm glad it went well. She's already out of the ICU. Thank God!

God answered our prayers but the battle is not yet over. It'll not be over until Jec and I are reconciled; and not until my mom recovers from this. I ask you to please continue to stand with me in prayer. My heartfelt thanks to all of you.


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5 a.m. yesterday, I got a call from my sister and she was crying. My mom was rushed to the ICU due kidney failure and heart attack. I felt numb and cold, I couldn't even talk. I wanted to see my mom but she's thousands of miles away from where I am. I said, "God, what is happening? First, my husband and now my mom. God, what am I gonna do?" My bestfriend, Jen, told me that I shouldn't keep my problems to myself, that I should let it all out or I might just die from it.

This morning, I called up my brother and I was surprised to hear my dad on the other line. My bro went to work and left his phone with my dad. I asked how mommy was and he said she's stable. She's responding well with the dialysis. She'll have another one tomorrow. While my dad was talking, tears were already welling in my eyes. Then he asked me how I was. I totally lost it, I broke down and cried. For almost a month I was keeping my problems from them afraid that they might be too affected by it. But I can't keep it any longer. I told my dad everything. He told me to take a rest for now and he'll take care of it. I felt like a big load lifted from my shoulder.

I thought for a while that if my dad --- my earthly father, loves and cares for me that much that he's going to take care of things for me, how much more willing would my Heavenly Father be to help me?

I thank everybody who continuously remembers us in prayer.