Give Me A Break!!!

I don't understand why dear Earth is inhabited by a lot of insensitive, self-centered, pathetic SHE morons! I could have said and done a lot more but no. Enough.

My "fruits" fall one by one when I get furious. But I'm always reminded to practice SELF CONTROL then I end up picking up all my "fruits" again. Freakin' hard if you'll ask me. But there's no other way to cut loose this bondage. People think I'm sugar-and-spice-and-all-things-nice kind of girl. Sure, I so LOVE that! But na-uh, I ain't that kind of girl...ok, so maybe just a little. Hey, I do have moods you know. HUMAN???

Sheesh...

At Home... With God

After a days work, I find it so relaxing editing my Blog. It's so much fun trying to find new stuff for it. It's so rewarding when people appreciate my work.

I came across this touching poem and I'd like to dedicate this to our two little angels whom we miss so much. We'd like to always remind them that they'll be forever in our hearts.

You never said I'm leaving
You never said goodbye
You were gone before I knew it,
And only God knows why.

A million times I needed you,
A million times I cried.
If love alone could have saved you,
You never would have died.

In life I loved you dearly,
In death I love you still.
In my heart you hold a place,
That no one could ever fill.

It broke my heart to lose you,
But you didn't go alone.
For part of me went with you,
The day God took you home.

Author Unknown

Cell Group

I feel so blessed for having a support group that we could really count on - our cell group.
We can tell them our problems and they won't be judgmental. We can tell them our needs and they will gladly pray for us. We can tell them our plans and they will remind us to talk to God about it. When we were on cloud nine, they rejoiced with us. When we were in the deeps, they cried with us. We meet every week to share our experiences and blessings, to encourage one another, to pray for each other, to study the Word and to have a wholesome fun.

"Again I say unto you, that if two of you shall agree on earth as touching anything that they shall ask, it shall be done for them of my Father which is in heaven." Matthew 18:19

This certainly helped me and my husband to grow more in our faith and to stay focused on God's promises to us. We're grateful to be a part of a group like this which helps us remember what our priority should be, that is to put God first in everything we do.

"But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well." Matthew 6:33

"Whatever you do, whether in word or deed, do it all in the name of the Lord Jesus, giving thanks to God the Father through Him." Colossians 3:17

Little Angels In Heaven

I first read this poem just this morning. Got this from Laura of M.I.S.S. It says a lot about what's inside of me.

No one sees the broken heart
That lies beneath my smile
No one sees the loneliness
That's with me all the while
Silent tears gently fall
That others do not see
For my precious child
Who meant the world to me.

~Author Unknown

Thank you Laura for posting this poem in M.I.S.S., Det for introducing me to this wonderful group and Aps for all the kind words and the prayers.

Mother's Day

Mother's Day. It's my most dreaded day ever since that unthinkable event in my life happened. I don't really have anything against this day. It's just that it reminds me of the torturing emotional pain I went through.

One of my dear friends told me that Sean and Matthew sure are proud of how I fought for them. She also said that I'm in every right a mom. Come to think of it, I never really thought of it that way. That actually made me feel great. I told my husband about it. He said he agrees and he's proud of me.

That changed my whole outlook about Mother's Day. They're right! I was Sean and Matthew's mom and I will forever be.