God's Favor

Meet Kian and Ginger. I got these two adorable bears last night during the Unilab's Christmas party at EDSA Shangri-la. When you order a drink, you get one of these cute bears. The waiter gave me two! Ha! On my way home, I got to drive my friend's white Porsche. How cool was that?! And this morning, I got in the mail the book I requested online from Oral Robert's Ministry for free!
I told my friend last night that everything good that's happening to me these days is because of God's favor. It causes people to extend preferential treatment to us. I believe it didn't "just happen" or it was just a coincidence, it's simply God moving in our midst, God giving us His favor. It really pays when we obey God. And let us not forget that our God is a rewarder. When we obey Him, we can never outrun His blessings. Isn't God amazing?

You're Still The One

Today marks our 4th anniversary. Jec and I met and got together in 1998. It's a relationship that could be best described as "against all odds." It was complicated no matter which side you look at it. We experienced resistance from our families. We parted and then got back together. Finally, on December 15, 2002 we said our I do's.

Today, after four years of being married, we're still happy and together we're looking forward to more of God's blessings.

Happy Anniversary, Babe! Luv yah!

Looks like we made it... Look how far we've come my baby... We mighta took the long way... We knew we'd get there someday... They said, "I bet they'll never make it"... But just look at us holding on... We're still together still going strong... (Shania Twain's "You're Still the One")

Goodbye, Jeff...

I didn't get much sleep last night because of a phone call I got from my hubby's friend, Bob. My skin went cold after hearing what Bob had to say. It just dawned on me how short life really is, that no matter what social standing you have in life, death is no respecter of wealth.

I received a text message from Bob's wife asking for my landline number and she said it's urgent. I wondered what that could be all about. My phone rang. Cherrie's voice didn't sound as bubbly as it used to. Before I could even ask what was wrong, Bob came on the line and said Jeff died. Jeff is a close friend of my husband. I couldn't believe what I just heard and asked if that was some kind of a joke. Of course, it wasn't, he wouldn't pull a sick joke like that on me. Jeff and his four year old daughter were burned when their house went on fire last December 8. His wife, Kit, a flight attendant, wasn't with them when it happened. Jec cried when I told him about it last night. He was astonished just like the rest of us. No one expected or wanted anything like this to happen to anyone, but it did.

I couldn't fathom the grief Kit must be feeling now. I don't even know what to say to her when I see her later. Please pray for Kit.

It's Beginning To Feel A Lot Like Christmas

How time flies. It's December once again and soon it'll be the start of another year. I wonder how the new year would be like for us. Hmm... I can only hope for the best. Mom and dad are spending white Christmas with my brother's family in Newark. My SIL and nephew, Andre, are spending Christmas with me which I think is a very good idea because if not, I'll be spending Christmas alone. Bad idea? I think so too. Well, my tree is up since October, I always put mine up right after my birthday. You'd say it's early? Well, when I was a kid, my mom would put up the tree as soon as the "ber" month starts and that'll be around September 15. Ha! Now that's early!

Anyway, I'm so looking forward to December 26 because my hubby's coming home! Yipee! Although we won't be able to celebrate our 4th anniversary and spend Noche Buena together this year, we will during the Media Noche and all the special occasions in the years to come. Yup, my hubby's coming home to stay.

At the service last night, I got so encouraged with the message our pastor shared that what God has promised, it will come to pass. So for all those who feel hopeless, don't be. We serve a faithful and mighty God who can do even the impossible. Our job is to BELIEVE. Have you ever heard the saying that God helps those who help themselves? Well, uh, yeah, but I think it's more correct to say that God helps those who are helpless. I hope you too will be encouraged today as we remember who God really is.

Happy weekend!

The Fern & The Bamboo

Do you feel tired of living and you simply want to give up? Is the urge too strong for you to quit? Here's a short story that I got in my mail this morning. I hope this will give you encouragement to hang in there.


One day I decided to quit... I quit my job, my relationship, my spirituality... I wanted to quit my life. I went to the woods to have one last talk with God. "God", I said. "Can you give me one good reason not to quit?"

His answer surprised me. "Look around", He said. "Do you see the fern and the bamboo?"

"Yes", I replied.

"When I planted the fern and the bamboo seeds, I took very good care of them. I gave them light. I gave them water. The fern quickly grew from the earth. Its brilliant green covered the floor. Yet nothing came from the bamboo seed. But I did not quit on the bamboo.

In the second year the fern grew more vibrant and plentiful. And again, nothing came from the bamboo seed. But I did not quit on the bamboo.

In year three there was still nothing from the bamboo seed. But I would not quit. The same in year four.

Then in the fifth year, a tiny sprout emerged from the earth. Compared to the fern, it was seemingly small and insignificant. But just six months later, the bamboo rose to over 100 feet tall. It had spent the five years growing roots. Those roots made it strong and gave it what it needed to survive."

"I would not give any of my creations a challenge it could not handle."

"Did you know, my child, that all this time you have been struggling, you have actually been growing roots? I would not quit on the bamboo. I will never quit on you."

"Don't compare yourself to others." He said. "The bamboo had a different purpose than the fern. Yet they both make the forest beautiful."

"Your time will come", God said to me. "You will rise high."

"How high should I rise?" I asked.

"How high will the bamboo rise?" He asked in return.

"As high as it can?" I questioned.

"Yes." He said, "Give me glory by rising as high as you can."

I left the forest, realizing that God will never give up on me. And He will never give up on you. Never regret a day in your life.


Good days give you happiness; bad days give you experiences; both are essential to life.

What Will Your Answer Be?

What are you hoping God to do in your life? If God asks you at this very moment, "What do you want me to do?" What would you say? What's on the top of your list?

I asked myself that question and my mind suddenly went from zero activity to gazillion thoughts swarming my head like crazy! What do I want God to do in my life? There's a lot of things I want Him to do for me. In fact, this page here wouldn't be enough to list everything. But on top of my list there's one thing I really want Him to do. If God would ask me, "Daughter, what do you want me to do in your life?" I'd say,"Father, I want to be healed. From the crown of my head to the soles of my feet. I want to be made whole. I want to be set free."

What do you want God to do in your life?

Back For Good

It was one lazy afternoon at my parent's house. Andre, my three year old nephew, was watching Tom and Jerry cartoons when my dad asked him, "Would you like to go with us to the states?"

"States? Yes!" Andre answered back, completely ignoring the show he was watching, as if he understood what my dad just asked him.

"Pero paano ka sasama sa amin ni Gwama, wala ka pang visa? (But how will you go with me and Grandma, you don't have a visa yet?)", my dad asked him again.

"Visa?" I just love the way he had this puzzled look.

"Ah, alam ko na, ikakahon nalang kita para makasama ka. (Oh, I know, I'll just put you in a box so we can bring you with us.)" My dad chuckled.

"No!!! Kuha mo ako visa! (Get me a visa!) This time all of us were already laughing. My nephew didn't understand what a visa was, but would rather have one than being plunked into a box.

I asked him, "Why do you want to go to the states?"

"Because I'd like to ride an airplane," he snapped back.

"Why is that?" I asked him again.

"I'll look for daddy sa (in the) airplane," he said.

Even when he got it all mixed up, we all found him so cute! The afternoon turned out not so lazy after all. We all had a hearty laugh and it felt real good.

I'm so glad to be back!!!

Hi There!

Just a quick update. I know I've been away for quite some time but that doesn't mean that I've forgotten all about you. Never a day passed without me saying a short prayer for all my blogger friends. I miss y'all! I still haven't checked out your sites, but I promise I will. I just need a little more time.

Our business is doing fine. We've already established our client base and things are pretty much going uphill. My partner and I had a lot of disagreements in the beginning and we argue a lot, but thank God I think we're both getting pass that. Everything was made possible with God's help.

Jec and I are still going strong in spite of the distance. We call each other everyday and I'm kinda scared to look at my phone bill when it arrives. Hehe... Jec is growing more and more in God and I'm so proud of him. He helps me a lot in staying strong and firm in my faith. God bless him!

Today... in my 33 years of existence, I thank God for all His blessings. I may not have everything in life but I sure am blessed and truly happy for all that I have. It's kinda sad though because I won't be able to celebrate my birthday with my husband and my entire family (except for my dad, he's busy with some things he needs to finish). They're all out of the country and I'm home alone... =(

Anyway, thank y'all for sharing this day with me. I love y'all and God bless.

Taking A Big Step

I am saying goodbye to my job on the 23rd. It has been five years that I've been with the company. So much has happened, both good and challenging, which made me who I am today. Jec and I prayed and discussed things through and finally decided that I concentrate on the business we just started recently. Although it made me feel bad leaving behind some friends and the work that I've been so used to, this move is definitely for our advancement. Yeah, bittersweet, you can call it that. It's a big step I'm taking and we're going out of our comfort zone, trusting God for His blessings and provisions. We've received help from people we haven't met in person and we're determined to make this work so we could help others, in return, as well. God has blessed us in so many ways and we'd like to bless others too.

Another sad side of this story is, since I need to focus first on our newly opened business, my blogging will have to take a backseat for a while. That means I won't be able to go visit your sites as well... so sad. I really need to do this and I hope you'd understand. I'll sure miss all of you. I hope to see you again when I come back.

God bless y'all. You'll be in my prayers. Till next time... c",)

God Will Take Care Of Us

As I sit on my desk this very moment, there's so many things going on in my mind. There's so many decisions that I have to make and so many things that I need to consider. Early this morning, I called up Jec to see how he was. He seem okay at first but I sensed that he's trying not to sound like he's been crying. His voice began to crack though, undeniably, when he started telling me how much he misses me and how much he misses taking care of me. I told him not to worry because God will take care of us. At that point in time, I needed to be strong for him. There were times, though, when I was the one who'd feel so down and hopeless and he'd tell me the same thing -- "Babe, don't worry, God will take care of us."

My best friend, Jen, would always tell me how blessed I am to have someone like Jec for a husband. She would even jestingly ask if Jec has a twin brother because she'd love to marry his twin. I've realized how blessed I am from the moment we got married, I never stopped thanking God for giving him to me as my lifetime partner. Surely, God gives you the best when you are willing to wait. I know Jec reads my blog from time to time and I'd like to send this message across.

"Babe, we may be going through rough roads sometimes but we do see God's
goodness in our lives. He opens a window for us to peak and allows us see
what's on the other side of the fence, so our hope will be renewed. I know that we miss each other terribly but as you always say, God will take care of us
and I believe He will. Whenever you feel down and lonely, just
remember that I love you very much and I miss you. I'm always praying for
you. Take care of yourself and I'll see you soon. God bless."

Temptation

When you are doing God's will, the more the enemy will come and taunt you. Have you noticed that? Satan always chooses just the right time to attack us and He knows when to pull the rug out from under us. This is exactly what happened to me this morning.

I fasted last night and spent time with God, woke up from a good night sleep, went to office and called up my husband as I always do every morning (thanks, Jolly, for creating my new VoIP account). I was determined to do whatever is right today and guess what, the enemy did his best to ruin everything for me. Nice try though. Sure, I got annoyed a few times, but I didn't give him the satisfaction of getting me in bondage again. I knew he was trying to get me to do what I would usually do when I'm pissed. He knew exactly how to tick me off. But he failed to get what he wanted.

Temptation will always knock at our doors but when it does, let's make sure to let Jesus answer it.

Goodbyes Are Not Always Forever 2

Hubby left again yesterday. It was actually the same month when he left last year. I wasn't really prepared emotionally for this, well, I guess I never will be no matter how often this happens. There's just so many things I'd be missing about him...

We were busy packing his things last Saturday, but I was in denial. After we attended the service in the afternoon, our cell members gave him a small get-away party then they prayed for us and his trip. Back home as we were getting ready for bed, it dawned on me that this was for real, my husband's leaving the next day. That's when the heavy waterworks all started.

Today, I'm waiting for his call and praying that all is well with him.

Babe, take care and always remember that I love you very much, I always will. God bless.

Just Busy...

Just busy. I'll be back soon.

One Hectic Day

Jec and I went to a mall in downtown area last Saturday to buy some stuff for the new business we're starting soon. It was one hectic day. Woke up at 6:30 a.m. and left the house at 7:30 a.m. to have my blood test. Then we went to the clinic to get a number for my late afternoon check up. Then we met up with my bestfriend so we can go buy the stuff we need. It took us the whole afternoon to buy everything on our list.

Jec went to the restroom on the other building while Jen and I waited on the other wing. I got a call from Jec a few minutes later and he told us to get all our stuff and leave the building as fast as we could. I was just about to ask why when he told me "just leave and meet me at the entrance!". I knew there was something wrong. Jen and I scurried out the building with three huge plastic bags full of stuff we bought. There were policemen everywhere and people were running off in different directions. The news didn't reach the people inside the mall yet, I figured. Some dingbat purposedly left a bomb somewhere outside the mall that caused people to panic. What was he/she thinking? Why would he/she want people to die? We didn't wait around anymore, we just went straight home, freshened up and went back to the clinic for my check up. We were so pooped from going around the metro the whole day. Well, we finished our errands and we're glad we did. Thank God we got home safe and sound.

Which Report Will You Believe?

For years, I've been depressed on and off everyime I get my doctor's report regarding my health. Fear would overcome me for every single bad news I hear from my doctors. I've been disappointed with God many times in the past because I've been praying like crazy and still nothing changed. The more I prayed, the worse the reports got.

I was told to believe and claim my healing because that's God's will for everyone of us. So I did, but I didn't quite understand how that works. I thought once I start believing and claiming it for myself, I'll get instant results. Gosh, I was wrong! Sure, some people get healed instantly like it was a microwave miracle. But for some, like me, it takes time. Why? Only God knows and I can only assume. One thing is for sure, though, God has a reason for it, we'll find out about it eventually, in time. So while we're in it, which report will we believe?

The medical report says one thing but the Word of God says another. You have to decide which one you're going to believe. I had to make a choice. Was I going to entertain fear and get depressed the whole time while my mind try to absorb the FACT that I'm sick and hopeless or was I going to believe in God's TRUTH that says by His wounds we are healed (Isaiah 53:5)? God's report says, "He took our infirmities and carried our diseases" (Matthew 8:17). "They will lay hands on the sick, and they will get well" (Mark 16:18). I chose the latter. Along with it I say, "I'm getting better everyday". In time, I'd be able to say what Lindsay Roberts said, "Soon the symptoms caught up with my faith and they began to line up with the Word of God. Today I am healed!" I know I'm getting there.

My Life's Journey

The pain and the rashes on my face and body are now completely gone. I can now sleep like a baby at night. Thank God! I'd like to thank everyone who prayed for me, Jec and I are truly grateful for all your prayers and well wishes. Thanks to Corry and KC for the wonderful gift they sent us. It is our heart's desire that God will bless y'all abundantly.

God has been continually sending people my way, people whom I would think is God Himself, as I go and travel my life's journey. In trying times, God has proven that His grace is sufficient and there really is new grace in the time of need. God showed me this truth when I'm this close to hitting rock bottom. My life is like a puzzle with all the pieces in front of me. When I try to put them all together myself, I get frustrated because I tend to jumble the pieces more often than not. When I let God do the fitting, everything works like magic. Patiently, He puts one and two together and before I know it, my life's majestic figure is becoming more and more evident to my human eye.

In front of me are some loose pieces of my life's puzzle and I can't seem to put them in its place correctly. I'm reminded of a story about a father and son who goes fishing once in a while to bond. Most of the time, the boy gets his fishing line tangled in knots. The more he try to untangle the knots himself, the bigger and tighter the knots become. He finally decided to hand it over to his father to untie the knots for him so he can continue fishing. Slowly, little by little, as the father works on it, the knots on the fishing line were straightened. Some of the loose pieces in my puzzle are situations in my life where they're all tangled up. Just like in the story, the more I try to fix them, the more messed up they become. The other day, God reminded me to hand Him over my "tangled fishing line" so He could fix it for me and I can enjoy the life He gave me the way He intended it.

The Little Grass Hut

I know I said that I might not be posting for this month anymore but I want to share this important lesson with y'all.

The past few days have been really difficult for me. I've been in pain through out the day and I can't take pain killers for it because it could complicate with my other health condition and I have rashes all over my body including my face. I went to my doctor for check up last Tuesday and she gave me a new list of lab tests (I'm getting tired of this) to be done which includes one that has to be sent to the states because we don't have the facilities to perform it here. Just imagine how much that'll cost us... that's around $400. The medication that I have to undergo which is called IVIg would cost us around $1,300 per session. My doctor said that I have to have the infusion for three consecutive months (so that's a total of three sessions). Plus I have to take steroids and of course my Clexane/Heparin shots daily. No, we don't have the insurance to pay for all of that, we don't have that kind of insurance here unfortunately. Because of the excruciating pain that I'm going through and all these treatments, not to mention the monetary cost of it all, I felt more like death is such a welcome breeze. I told God that I'd appreciate it if He'll just take my life and spare me the pain. I couldn't stand seeing my husband suffer along with me. I kept asking God to please take my life now. I was waiting for God to strike me with lightning or maybe a heart attack or something that'll stop me from breathing, but none of those... I'm still alive.

I guess it's not God's will for me to die yet. Maybe He wants me to do a lot more with my life. Maybe He wants me to help others who are also suffering. Maybe...

The Little Grass Hut

The only survivor of a shipwreck was washed up on a small,
uninhabited island. He prayed feverishly for GOD to rescue him and everyday he
scanned the horizon for help, but none seemed forthcoming. Exhausted, he
eventually managed to build a little hut out of driftwood to protect himself
from the elements and to store his few possessions.

One day, after scavenging for food, he arrived home to find his little hut in flames with smoke rolling up to the sky. The worst had happened! Everything was lost! He was stunned with disbelief, grief, and anger. "GOD, how could you do this to me?" he cried.

Early the next day he was awakened by the sound of a ship that was approaching the island. It had come to rescue him. "How did you know I was here?" asked the weary man of his rescuers. "We saw your smoke signal," they replied.

Moral of the story: It's easy to get discouraged when things are going bad, but we shouldn't lose heart, because GOD is at work in our lives, even in the midst of pain, and suffering. Remember that, the next time your little hut seems to be burning to the ground. It just may be a smoke signal that summons the grace of GOD.

Taking A Break

Last night came another blow in our lives. I thought, when will this ever end? At the back of my mind and in my heart I know that God is still in control and He's telling us to TRUST HIM. My body, my flesh, wants to give up already. I wanted to go over all the mountains in front of us NOW, but I'm aware that it's going to take some time. Jec said to keep on pressing on and I know that that's the only way to go if we want to win this race.

This may be my last post for the month because honestly, I'm already exhausted from life's pressures. I'm sorry that I have to take another break from blogging. I'll still be around though. Please know that you're all in my prayers and if you could pray for us too, that'll be very much appreciated. Thank y'all and God bless!

A Prayer For You

As I read my Bible, I listed down some verses in a piece of paper and kept in my bag so I can pull it out anytime I need to remind myself of God's promises. I read them aloud and meditate on them especially when I feel like my faith is being shaken. I'd like to share these verses to you in hope that they will also help you in whatever circumstance you're in right now.

"So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I
will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right
hand." Isaiah 41:10

"Forget the former things; do not dwell on the past. See, I am doing a new
thing! Now it springs up; do you not perceive it? I am making a way in the
desert and streams in the wasteland." Isaiah 43:18-19

"So is my word that goes out from my mouth: It will not return to me empty, but
will accomplish what I desire and achieve the purpose for which I sent it."
Isaiah 55:11

"The LORD will keep you from all harm— he will watch over your life; the LORD
will watch over your coming and going both now and forevermore." Psalm 121:7-8

Father, I pray that you will touch the lives of everyone who reads this post. May they feel your divine presence as they meditate on your precious words. Give us renewed strength and peace of mind as we stand on your promises. I sincerely believe that our miracle is on its way. I ask all these in the name of our Lord Jesus Christ, Amen.

On A Lighter Note...

This is my first post for the month of June and since I don't have anything new to share at this point, I've decided to do this tag, this time with a lighter and happier mood... for a change. c",) Here goes:

I am... Pia, happily married.
I said... and I'll say it again, God is good!
I want... to obey Him and reap my rewards and to lead a good example for others.
I wish... I could be of more help to others with financial needs.
I miss... my childhood days. I had a happy one.
I hear... words of encouragement from friends all the time. They help me a lot to keep going.
I wonder... what God's great plans for me? I'm excited to experience all of them now.
I regret... disobeying Him in the past in spite of the obvious that messed up my life big time.
I am not... perfect.
I dance... as often as I can to keep me fit.
I sing... songs of worship when I'm happy, sad and especially when I'm scared.
I cry... when I'm in pain and when I'm too happy.
I am not always... positive. But thank God I don't wallow in negativity that long.
I make with my hands... some cross stitching.
I write... whenever I feel like it.
I confuse... God's will with mine and so I used to end up disappointed often in the past.
I need... God's mercy, love and blessings.
I should... keep trusting God because He who promises is faithful.
I start... to panic when things don't go according to my plans. God dealt with me about this.
I finish... whatever I started. I never stop until it's done.
I love... God, my husband, my family and friends.
I tag... YOU!

Your Will Be Done

That was my prayer last night after I saw my doctor again for my check-up. On our way home, I was talking to God with my eyes shut and singing, "God will make a way, where there seems to be no way..." Deep down inside I really felt like crying but there's this voice that kept telling me, "I know. Trust me. Everything will be okay" I knew that that was the voice of God speaking to me. No, the doctor didn't tell us any bad news. My killer cells are not in their usual raging mode so far, everything's under control. She just told us the steps we're taking in the days ahead. It's when we started computing the amount that we need to spend for the treatment that shook us a bit.

At home...

"Babe, do you believe that God will make a way?" I asked.

"Yes," he said.

"Are you worried?" I asked again.

"Well, I can't help it. Yes, I'm a bit worried," he said.

"God will provide. He said He will. You'll see." Then he proceeded to give me my shot. Tears were forming in my eyes because of the pain but I kept telling myself that this is all worth it and "Lord, your will be done."

Pains And Worries

We went to my immunologist last Saturday morning for my check up. I was given a list of blood tests that I have to do again. I was prescribed to take Prednisone tabs and Clexane shots daily... again. On our way home while we're still in the car, I couldn't help crying. I can't brush off the thought of how painful each shot is, plus how expensive my medicines are. I was worried sick! When some friends and family learned about this, they were all so worried about me too, especially my dad. I can't blame them, they knew what I've gone through and how complicated it was.

I kept telling God how scared I was and asked Him to strengthen me. I was encouraged after hearing what our pastor preached that afternoon. It's like as if God was telling me, "Daughter, fear not for I am here to take care of you." All of a sudden I felt like my worries were lifted up from me. Back home, I still feel the pain each time Jec gives me the shot, but I know that God is holding my hand and I could almost hear Him say, "Daughter, it's okay. I'm here with you."

I've stopped asking God why. I've just embraced the truth that He knows best.

My Prayer

Dear God,

Thank you for blessing us, for loving us, for taking care of our needs, for giving us each other, for our friends, our families...

Thank you for understanding us; for laughing and crying with us; for the joy, peace and hope you give us...

Thank you for being faithful to your words...

Thank you for hearing our prayers...

Bless me, my husband, our families and friends...

May your name be glorified in everything we do...

In Jesus' name I pray,

Amen.

Hard Facts Of Life

I know it's been a while since I last posted. I'm sorry for not being able to touch base with you. I've been quite busy with a lot of things lately. Not everything turned out the way we hoped for though. It's hard to accept things sometimes especially when you don't get that something that you've wanted so badly. But life has to go on, life doesn't stop here. Reasons do not always make sense unfortunately, but that's life. There are things that we just have to accept and let go.

That's the hard facts of life.

Dart Test

I got this email from a very dear friend of mine and I thought I'd share it to y'all. I felt a slight pinch in the heart after reading this. I wonder if you will too. Here goes...
A young lady named Sally relates an experience she had in a seminary class given by her teacher, Dr. Smith. She says that Dr. Smith was known for his elaborate object lessons.

One particular day, Sally walked into the seminary and knew they were in for a fun day. On the wall was a big target and on a nearby table were many darts. Dr. Smith told the students to draw a picture of someone that they disliked or someone who had made them angry, and he would allow them to throw darts at the person's picture.

Sally's friend drew a picture of who had stolen her boyfriend. Another friend drew a picture of his little brother. Sally drew a picture of a former friend, putting a great deal of detail into her drawing, even drawing pimples on the face. Sally was pleased with the overall effect she had achieved.

The class lined up and began throwing darts. Some of the students threw their darts with such force that their targets were ripping apart. Sally looked forward to her turn and was filled with disappointment when Dr. Smith, because of time limits, asked the students to return to their seats. As Sally sat thinking about how angry she was because she didn't have a chance to throw any darts at her target, Dr. Smith began removing the target from the wall.

Underneath the target was a picture of Jesus. A hush fell over the room as each student viewed the mangled picture of Jesus; holes and jagged marks covered His face and His eyes were pierced. Dr. Smith said only these words...

"In as much as ye have done it unto the least of these my brethren, ye have done it unto Me." Matthew 25:40

No other words were necessary; the tears filled eyes of the students focused only on the picture of Christ.
This is an easy test; you either score 100 or zero. It's your choice.

Happy Easter

While growing up, I was made aware of several beliefs that "must" be followed during the holy week. Most of these beliefs are, for me, questionable if not senseless. But believe it or not, there are still a number of people here who abide by these do's and dont's. Here are some of them:

~ One shouldn't take a bath on Good Friday (Yikes!)
~ One shouldn't eat meat during the holy week (I do and I'm still in one piece)
~ One shouldn't be happy during the holy week, especially on Good Friday and Black Saturday (So I have to wear a long face for 48 hours)
~ One shouldn't be doing fun activities during the holy week (This is why I used to hate holy week a lot)
~ One shouldn't get wounded on Good Friday or it won't heal until the next holy week (This is crazy!)

Not that I have any intention to step on anybody's foot here but if I did, I'm sorry. I used to dread holy week but not anymore. Now, I love holy week and this is why I do.

The Father gave His only Son to die on the cross to redeem us, to save us from eternal death. That is how much love He has for us. Jesus Christ died only once and now He lives. Because of this, we have all the reasons to rejoice. Now that I understand this truth, I no longer have to wear a long face during the holy week. I can now engage in fun activities because He lives! I use these days to relax, reflect and have fun! I think you should too. HAPPY EASTER!!!



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My Redeemer Lives

I know he rescued my soul

His blood has covered my sin

I believe, I believe

My shame He's taken away

My pain is healed in his name

I believe, I believe

I'll raise a banner

'Cause my Lord has conquered the grave

My Redeemer lives, my Redeemer lives

My Redeemer lives, my Redeemer lives

You Lift my burdens

I'll rise with You

I'm dancing on this mountain top to see your kingdom come.

The Horror!

I had my tooth extracted last Saturday. The horror!

I'm scared of dentists and that's a fact. I had a traumatic experience with a dentist as a kid. Though I only had one extraction in the past, it sure scared the crap out of me. I never wanted to go back to the dentist ever again. Of course, that wasn't possible because I was always dragged by my parents to the dentist for my dental prophylaxis. Those drills, it pains my ears!!! It made me squirm on my seat. And it still does now!

I didn't have a choice, my tooth cracked while eating french fries. Yes, french fries! I knew I had to visit my dentist again because I needed to have it checked. As she looked at it, she said that she needed to remove the tooth. Good heavens! I immediately turned white as snow, even my dentist noticed it. Haha!

I take good care of my teeth because I hate visits to the dentist. Well, I guess this time that wouldn't suffice anymore because I was asked to go see her again after six months. The horror!

Waiting

"I wait for the LORD, my soul waits, and in his word I put my hope." Psalm 130:5

Faith Renewed

I know that God is in control, that He has good plans for all of us, that He's faithful to His promises and knows what's in our hearts. Unfortunately, I didn't feel quite hopeful about anything last Friday morning. I was happy, sad and agitated... all at the same time. Happy because I've got friends like you who patiently listens to my ramblings. Sad because this grief-stricken feeling and the pain... they're nothing but real. And agitated because I hated what I've felt!

I had a talk with Pastor Sonny last Saturday after the dedication rites of my friend's daughter. He prayed for us, quoted some scriptures and told us not to give in to the lies of the enemy. "We can't control the thoughts that goes in and out of our minds but we can control what thoughts we will entertain," he said.

You think I didn't know that? Well, of course I do! It's just that sometimes I get so drained with negativity that I start to believe the enemy's lies and my hope begins to deteriorate.

Thank you for your prayers and for always being there for me. I needed to let off steam and I'm sorry for ranting. Now my faith is renewed. If there's a very important reminder I got from this experience, it's that our mind is the battlefield. It's the enemy's job to confuse, to trick and to mislead us. But that's all he can do. The truth has already been said and they're all written in the Bible. We have to stand firm on that truth and keep our faith burning by constantly reminding ourselves of God's promises.

Easier said than done? Maybe... but it's worth trying, don't you think?

The Day

The long wait is over! Yesterday was THE DAY for a lot of us in the office. Retrenchment notices were given out and a meeting was held to make clear what led to this drastic move. Some were caught by surprise that they're one of those that have to go and some have long accepted their fate. To those left behind, that includes me, we are all sadden to see all these people go, whom we have worked with for years.

This dreadful event that happened caused me to realize how lives could change just like that. While most of my co-workers were bewildered at what fate awaited them, I wasn't apprehensive about these things because I knew that God was and still is in control. I know that wherever He takes me, I'll be fine. I've stopped making my usual Plan A to Plan Z (that's what a control freak does) and just let Him lead. The pay off? My sanity was kept intact. ;-) The only downside I can see now is, I will be blogging less, say once a week, because of the workload I currently have. :-(

Please pray with me for my friends who just lost their jobs. May they find comfort in Him who promised all of us provision.

Meet the Blogger

It was blazin' hot last Friday. Jec and I got ourselves ready to meet up with Duncan and his wife Nerissa. Finally, they're in Manila. I've developed more meaningful friendships, thanks to blogging. I hope to have the chance to meet each of you too one of these days. Check out the pictures below.

Duncan and Nerissa

D and Nicole (One of D and Neri's three adorable kids)

D, me and Jec (I look tired here but I was happy to have met them =)

Neri, D (Sleepy?), Zoe (Isn't she a cutie?), me and Jec (Surprised?!)

There's Nicole with her mom (far left). Their son's the one taking the picture.

Inspirational Nugget

Life can only be understood by looking backward, but it must be lived by looking forward.

"Jesus replied, 'No one who puts his hand to the plow and looks back is fit for service in the kingdom of God.'" Luke 9:62

Sean Matthew G. Olano

Summer Fun

A few weeks ago, I was so worried about how I'd deliver the bad news to my colleagues. Guess what! All three probationary employees have already resigned and found themselves a better job somewhere else. Thank God! Not that I want them out of here but I couldn't possibly fail them in their evaluation when in fact they're doing good, just so I could meet the management's demands. I'm so relieved! But of course, this predicament is still far from over. A much bigger blow is yet to come.

It's officially summer here and it's time to have some fun!!! Don't you just love the smell of nature while sipping on your favorite fresh fruit shake under the shade of swaying palms?

Inspirational Nugget

Sorrow looks back. Worry looks around. Faith looks up.

"Let us fix our eyes on Jesus, the author and perfecter of our faith, who for the joy set before him endured the cross, scorning its shame, and sat down at the right hand of the throne of God." Hebrews 12:2

Sean Anakin G. Olano

A Revelation

Things have been crazy around here lately. Our section looks more like a ghost town than an office. Everybody does his own thing either on the computer or on the phone. I knew what everybody was up to and I just let them do whatever as I did mine. With all the fuss around here that got almost everybody worried, I've remained just the opposite. Don't get me wrong, I need a job just like anybody else and I could lose my job just as fast as others could. But I refuse to wallow in distress. I remember asking God to help me understand why things happen the way they do. Then last Saturday, our pastor said, "Don't try to 'see' before you have faith, have faith then you'll understand." What a revelation!

I'll be catching up with you guys as soon as I can.

Bearer Of Bad News

I was going through my daily reads and planning to write something positive after, but I was cut short when I was called by our HR to discuss to me something about the number of employees in my department. After that short discussion, my happy aura turned bleak. I went back to my desk with a dazed expression on my face.

One thing I was never really good at is terminating someone from employment. Well, I'm not really the one to terminate them (that's the work of our HR) but I'll be the one initiating the termination. And I said THEM, meaning there's more than one. I could feel my temperature rising while I was figuring out how I'd deliver the awful news to my staff. But I wasn't left with any choice, it's a management order and I have to do it. They're implementing a head count reduction and my department is one of those affected. Tomorrow, I have to start preparing the papers needed for this. It breaks my heart. Oh, God, I hate to be the bearer of bad news!

A Glass Of Milk

I got this in my email and I thought I'd share it to y'all. It's too good to just be kept in my mailbox. I hope this will inspire us to do good to others. Who knows, a simple good deed can benefit us a lot more in the future. God sees. God knows. God remembers. So here it is:

One day, a poor boy who was selling goods from door to door to pay his way through school, found he had only one thin dime left, and he was hungry. He decided he would ask for a meal at the next house. However, he lost his nerve when a lovely young woman opened the door. Instead of a meal he asked for a drink of water. She thought he looked hungry so she brought him a large glass of milk. He drank it slowly, and then asked,

"How much do I owe you?"

"You don't owe me anything," she replied. "Mother has taught us never to accept pay for a kindness."

He said... "Then I thank you from my heart."

As Howard Kelly left that house, he not only felt stronger physically, but his faith in God and man was stronger too. He had been ready to give up and quit.

Years later that young woman became critically ill. The local doctors were baffled. They finally sent her to the big city, where they called in specialists to study her rare disease. Dr. Howard Kelly was called in for the consultation. When he heard the name of the town she came from, a strange light filled his eyes. Immediately he rose and went down the hall of the hospital to her room. Dressed in his doctor's gown he went in to see her. He recognized her at once. He went back to the consultation room determined to do his best to save her life. From that day he gave special attention to the case.

After a long struggle, the battle was won. Dr. Kelly requested the business office to pass the final bill to him for approval. He looked at it, then wrote something on the edge and the bill was sent to her room. She feared to open it, for she was sure it would take the rest of her life to pay for it all. Finally she looked, and something caught her attention on the side of the bill.

She read these words... "Paid in full with one glass of milk" (Signed) Dr. Howard Kelly.

Tears of joy flooded her eyes as her happy heart prayed "Thank You, God, that Your love has spread abroad through human hearts and hands."

Count Your Blessings

These past few days, we have been really busy attending parties and dinners. In fact, I got another invitation right here at my desk. The most recent one we've attended so far was my nephew's 3rd birthday last Saturday. That afternoon, I met up with my cell group for our usual Bible study session. At the latter part of our discussion we got to share how God has blessed us that week. I was humbled by what my friend, Paz, shared to us. God has literally been providing for them, much like in the olden days when God provided manna to the Israelites in the wilderness. She said that they were at their lowest when she began trusting God like never before to provide for them especially milk for her kids. God didn't fail them.

Looking at others with the loads they carry on their shoulders and then looking at ourselves, have we ever tried counting our blessings?

Just So You Know

I'm so sorry if I haven't been in your sites lately. After I got home from work last February 14, I wasn't feeling well at all. I got a really bad sore throat and a fever that went along with it. I was stuck in bed for two days. I know I have a lot of catching up to do and I will as soon as I can.

Please know that y'all are in my prayers.

Happy Valentine's Day

In the midst of life's twinges, waking up to a bouquet of red roses, a big hug and a kiss from my dear hubby liven my day. Hope you too have a wonderful day today.

Happy Valentine's Day!

Have You Ever?

Have you ever felt like you're always climbing hills and mountains in your life?
You don't know when the journey will end...
And you're already tired?

Have you ever wanted something so much in your life?
You've done everything you can...
And you're already tired?

Have you ever been confused in your life?
You've searched for answers...
And you're already tired?

Have you ever tried to turn to Him and cried for help?
You've lifted it all to God...
Because you're already tired?

Lessons To Learn

Last Saturday morning, when I got up from bed and turned on the t.v., I was aghast with the terrible news that 74 people died of stampede in ULTRA, just a few minutes drive away from where we live. I flipped through the local channels but it was all that was shown. It was reported that people were already lined up in ULTRA even days before the anniversary special of that game show. They didn't mind sleeping on the street just so they could have a chance to win a cash prize to bring home to their families. Some of them even came from the province.

Nobody wanted that unholy event to happen, but it did. 74 people perished.

God has his reasons why He allowed it to happen. Maybe it's a wake up call for all of us. Maybe He wants us to learn something from it. We don't have all the answers, He does. This horrible event brought back to my memory what our pastor once said that it's better that we humble ourselves than God humbling us, because when we humble ourselves, we will be heartborken all right, but when God humbles us, we will be crushed.

Are we going to wait for God to humble us? Is this the hard lesson God wanted us to learn? Maybe... or maybe there's more.

My Anime

I went over to Drea's two days ago and she had a post there last January 29 about her fondness for drawing. I'd say she really has a talent for this. Here's a sample of her work and this is how my anime version looks like.

I asked Drea to make my hair longer because in the photo, my hair was tied in a bun. So here's how it turned out.

What do you think?

Marzipan Babies

I got this from an email. The details are amazing! They look so REAL, aren't they?

Definition of Marzipan:

Almond paste -- a sweet paste made of ground almonds and sugar, often with egg whites or yolks, used as a layer in cakes or molded into ornamental shapes

They're soooo CUTE!!!

Prayer Request

Two of our dear friends here in Blogsphere, KC and Corry, needs our prayer and support right now. I have spoken to Corry yesterday and she sounded really sad. They're having some rough times now and although I didn't get the details anymore because it's kind of personal, I have this urge to reach out and help them. But I know that it's only the two of them and God who can settle whatever problems they are currently facing. Let's join together in prayer for a quick resolution, comfort and healing for both KC and Corry.

No matter how softly we whisper a prayer, God hears, understands and knows the hopes and fears we keep in our hearts. When we trust in His love, miracles happen...

"May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust in him, so that you may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit." Romans 15:13

"For just as the sufferings of Christ flow over into our lives, so also through Christ our comfort overflows." 2 Cornithians 1:5

"So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand." Isaiah 41:10

Reunited At Last!

Ok, ok. Here's why I was excited. Hehe... A few weeks ago, when hubby and I were in lost of direction and discouraged, sincere prayers have been expressed and offered by friends for us. You were there when I was at my lowest point. This time, I'd like to share with you the joy I'm experiencing because hubby is finally back home. Jec arrived last January 24 at around 4:20 am. I was so happy to see him again. There were a few bumps on the way like his flight was delayed but nevertheless, he arrived home safely. Thank God! God truly answers prayers. Maybe not the way we imagined it, but His ways are best. When we obey Him and do what He says is right, then we can be sure that no matter where He puts us, His blessings will abound.

I'm Excited!!!

On a lighter note, after being afflicted by the crying spells for months, I think this time I'm almost well over it. I'm excited!!!

If you can't guess why, I'll let you know in my next post. Your prayers and mine have finally been answered. c",)

God's Gift

I have been praying for Andrea about the same time I was also asking God for something. And getting the news that they were denied of Matt's adoption is heartbreaking, well, that's how I've felt. Again, it's God's decision. We may not have all the answers now to our WHY's but God said we should trust Him. These are God's promises I was reminded of during the lowest point in my life:

"For I know the plans I have for you, declares the LORD, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Then you will call upon me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart." Jeremiah 29:11-13

"Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight." Proverbs 3:5-6

"And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose." Romans 8:28

God knows what's happening and His back is not turned against us. It's just that He has better plans in stored for us, far better than we've expected. It may be difficult today but God wants us to receive His gifts, greater gifts than we've ever thought of receiving. I'm sure multitudes of angels in heaven are already busy packing those gifts for us ready for delivery.

Lord, I'm ready!

Tagged Again

I promised Sycorax I'd do this tag. So here goes:

Five weird things about me. Uh... I can only think of one --- I love bitter melons. The more bitter the better. Well, my friends think that's weird.

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Your Blog Should Be Purple

You're an expressive, offbeat blogger who tends to write about anything and everything.You tend to set blogging trends, and you're the most likely to write your own meme or survey.You are a bit distant though. Your blog is all about you - not what anyone else has to say.

Footprints In The Sand

I don't even know how to begin to tell y'all how grateful Jec and I are for all the heart warming support and prayers we got here during our most trying times. We've all prayed hard but I guess God has other plans for us. I felt so bad and didn't know how to break the news to all of you. You've all prayed in faith and I felt like by telling you the bad news I will somehow turn you all down. KC told me during our phone conversation that it was God who decided that it was not yet time and that it wasn't my fault. Most of all, Jec and I felt so lost and didn't know what to do next. I cried to God for help and told Him to please hold us together because we couldn't take it anymore. I cried myself to sleep asking God for direction. When Jec was telling me about all your support, he was in tears. I got to read all your comments and prayers just now. He said, "Babe, don't worry. God will take care of us. He will make a way. We have all the love and support of your blogger friends and I was surprised by how much they truly care." I told him that you're more than just blogger friends, you're family.

I once posted here that my word for 2006 is FAVOR. God has indeed showed me favor in so many ways that I hardly noticed. We've gone through so much already and here we are, still together. We've lost two of our precious ones in the past years and dealt with rejection here and there but here we are, still together. Friends from different parts of the world are offering us whatever help they could give. My neighbor told me this morning, "Pia, look how God shows you favor. He loves you." And I realized, yes, she's right!

As I type this post, tears are falling but I have a smile on my face knowing that we're not alone in this trial. God gave us all of you for support and love. I know that this is not the last trial we're going to face but I know that there will only be one set of footprints in the sand.

Thank you for the love and support you showed me and Jec all this time. From the bottom of our hearts, we love you deeply. God bless y'all.

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One night a man had a dream. He dreamed he was walking along the beach with the LORD. Across the sky flashed scenes from his life. For each scene he noticed two sets of footprints in the sand: one belonging to him, and the other to the LORD.

When the last scene of his life flashed before him, he looked back at the footprints in the sand. He noticed that many times along the path of his life there was only one set of footprints. He also noticed that it happened at the very lowest and saddest times in his life.

This really bothered him and he questioned the LORD about it: "LORD, you said that once I decided to follow you, you'd walk with me all the way. But I have noticed that during the most troublesome times in my life, there is only one set of footprints. I don't understand why when I needed you most you would leave me."

The LORD replied: "My son, my precious child, I love you and I would never leave you. During your times of trial and suffering, when you see only one set of footprints, it was then that I carried you."

Forgive Me

I haven't been myself lately. And after staring at my monitor for 10 minutes, this is the only sensible thing I could write. I've been visiting some blogs but I couldn't concentrate long enough to finish what I was reading. I'd stop in the middle and wonder what I've just read. I couldn't remember. There's so many things in my mind these days. Forgive me if I haven't been as active in blogging as I used to. I know this is just a phase I'm going through like maybe some of you had already experienced. My concentration falls short and I'm lost for words again.

I think I found the best word to describe exactly how I feel right this very moment. Drained.

I'm taking a break. Just a short one. I'll be back soon.

Update On Mom 3

As promised, here's the latest update on Mom. Just got off the phone with my dad. Mom is doing a bit okay today but her lab test results showed her levels are still high. It went down a little from the last time she had her test but they're still considered high. I still praise God for the bits of improvements she's having. Still praying for her fast recovery and hoping it will not get worse. For those still praying for Mom, thank you so much. May God bless y'all.

You're Invited

You're all welcome to join our Daily Bible Study 2006. You'll see at my sidebar under my Daily Bread box this little girl holding a book, please click on her so you'll be redirected to our Bible Study page where we write our thoughts on our daily readings. You may post a comment and share your insights too.

To sign up for the One Year Bible 2006 program, please click here.

God bless!

What Is your Word For 2006?

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I just came from Kimber's blog where she suggested to think of a specific word for 2006 and her word is ACCEPTANCE. I've realized that I have also been loved and ACCEPTED by the people who are important to me and especially God who loves me and ACCEPTED me for who I am. For that, I am so thankful.

Paula M over at Grace Reign wrote there that her word for this year is EXPECTANT. Just like her, I am also expecting God to move in my life more this year.

Now it's my turn. My word for 2006 is FAVOR.

I have gone through so much last year and when I think back, I couldn't imagine how I got out of those turmoils still in one piece. I know it was all God's doing that's why I'm still here posting. Trials will still come and go but life's a bit easier to live by having Him with me always and friends like you to support me all the way. Boy, I thank God for all of you.

This year, I'm looking forward to more blessings and FAVOR from God Almighty. I have been praying for so many things and I know in my heart that they're in line with God's will and this year, I am boldly claiming them in Jesus' name.

What's your word for 2006?