Goodbyes Are Not Always Forever

I have never felt so empty as I've felt when my DH left for the States last Wednesday. I thought I could handle it well. Though I was already feeling sad while I was helping him pack, tears didn't fall until the last night we were together. I could hardly breathe from sobbing. The following night, as our friend and I went with him to the airport, I felt like I was floating on air. Everything around me seem to move in slow motion. I thought to myself that this could just be a dream, that this wasn't real. He checked in his luggages and went back out to be with us. We hang around a bit. Then it's time for him to go. We were both crying. We hugged each other so tight. We said goodbyes so many times but we couldn't let go of each other. Then he went in for boarding. There I stood looking at him, he waved at me for the last time and then he's gone.

Memories of us together flashed back. The simple joy we've shared, the trials we've surpassed... He used to tell me how much he loves me, that nothing comes close to how much he feels for me, that he adores me and cares for me more than he cares for anyone else. And I assured him that I feel the same way too.

Now, we're miles apart.

I remember how God told me that he's the one I'm going to marry. I couldn't believe it at first. But God confirmed it to me several times. When we were already planning our wedding, God spoke to me again about it. I knew deep in my heart that Jec is God's perfect choice for me.

Babe, I want you to always remember that I love you very much. God gave us each other as lifetime partners. Nothing, not even distance and no one could ever separate us. I pray to God that He will always keep you safe and healthy. I'm looking forward to being with you again soon. God bless you...

Let Go And Let God

"Therefore humble yourselves...casting the whole of your care on Him, for He cares for you affectionately and cares about you watchfully." 1 Peter 5:6,7

How often do we fall into the trap of fear and worry? I could have been an amenable victim until now and I could have long suffered a breakdown if not because of God's promises. I used to be a control freak. I panic when things don't go my way. I worry a lot! My friends used to say that sometimes I come in too strong. Maybe because I know I'm in control. A lot of times I distress myself worrying about things to come. In the midst of all these, God taught me to trust in Him and to cast all my cares on Him. It wasn't at all an easy move to make but it was definitely worth trying. When we put our trust in Him, we have to learn to let go and let God. He promised to take care of us. And "He who promised is faithful." Hebrews 10:23

Worrying will not achieve anything. But giving it all to God will. There are just some things that we cannot get our hands on and we must simply let God do the work for us. For a control freak like I used to, trust is nonexistent. Stress was my twin.

God gave us the way, it's up to us which road to take. Choose the easier path. Let go and let God.

Love Is...

I'm so glad it's Friday! That means I can stay up late tonight and wake up really late tomorrow. Ha!

Jec and I had a haircut yesterday. I also had my eyebrows done. And a foot massage too. On our way home, Jec asked what if he had his head shaved? I thought he was just joking. He was serious! Hmm... I'm not so sure. I told him to give it a shot. It's going to grow back anyway.

At home, I'm not just Jec's wife but also his skin care therapist and his nutritionist all in one. He used to only have a soap and shampoo for bathing. Now, he also uses other skin care products I'm using. Talk about being vain. Haha! I also constantly remind him not to eat OILY food and to take his vitamins daily. Gosh! He eats a lot and hates to exercise. One thing I love about him, though, is that he supports my being "kikay". c",)

Jec knows how much I love veggies and sea food, which he ultimately dislikes, but he still cooks them for me. Our friends are witnesses on how much Jec pampers me. I'm really going to miss him soooo very much!

Random Thoughts

I got a mail again from Tulsa Oklahoma. ORM sent me an Overcoming Fear With Faith booklet. It speaks about using our little faith that's innate within us and to stand on God's promises. Nice booklet. Very reassuring.

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Does the Philippines still has a chance to rise above all the problems we're facing today?

I strongly believe so if and ONLY if we will have a strong sense of discipline in ourselves. I remember Korina Sanchez said on one of her interviews that there's this widow who has nothing but was able to fend for her 8 children, who are all professionals now. If a widow was able to do the "impossible", why can't other Juan dela Cruzes do the same? This widow, obviously, did everything she can to lay food on their table and to get her children to school every single day without having to depend on the "president" for their everyday needs. Secret? Determination.

No matter who we elect as president, if we won't do our part in this society, there's little or nothing the president can do to lift this country from poverty. The change has to start from us.

Why do officials of this country run for a slot in the government? Is it really because they want to serve the people or they simply want to serve themselves???

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How come there are people who talk a lot, think of others as second rate and would secretly wish the people around them to be as miserable as they are?

Ever heard of ENVY?

Friends

Friends will always see you through...
Believe in the things you want to do...
Feel happy when your dreams come true...
That's just the way friends are.

Friends will always be right there...
With wisdom, faith and strength to share...
With love that shows how much they care...
That's just the way friends are.